Monday, June 20
Saturday, May 21
Had you seen Bapa anywhere? He's already gone. He left us on 17th May in the morning. It was a shocked. But we can accept it just same way like you were. It remind me how we lose you, I almost gone with tears but I hold it because with tears It can't solve anything. We just need to pray to the GOD that Bapa soul & you will Rest In Peace. It's been years since Bapa can't move & had to laid on bed. Poor Bapa. They said It's a good thing to let him go from suffered more.
I was glad because Bapa grave placed near with you. Now you & Bapa can be together. Last time, when Bapa saw you lying in a coffin. He cried a lot & knocked the glass of your coffin at your face & said "Ning, bangun..bangun bah...". I cried when saw he did that. Huhu. Daddy, now I understood why you called me in my previous dream. You want to tell me about Bapa right?
Daddy, I wonder how Bapa & you met. There's a lot things you two will discussing. There's a lot stories to share too. I wonder how's Bapa feel when he meet you. He must be happy right? Daddy, please take care of Bapa in the Heaven. We'll visit your grave & Bapa soon with Mama. Mama was so sad when lose Bapa & you. But she never gone that far because she had a very strong heart & able to face it calmly. I'm glad she was my grandmother Daddy. I want to be like her too.
Anyway, Bapa already 83 this year & he had a very long journey though. He was amazing grandfather I ever had. When I got into Poly, he gave me a money to spent & same when I was in secondary school. He always being nice. I'll miss him a lot. Just I missed you more, Daddy.
Bapa, Gabriel @ Onong Minggul REST IN PEACE on the 17th May 2011, 9.15 am at Our Resident, Kampung Bunsihou, Papar.
Posted by Henrietta Thomas at 09:25
Wednesday, May 11
It's been two days I didn't update this letters for you. Hope you'll not mad at me. I was so busy with works. And I couldn't find a time to post to you. Sorry. : (
By the way, last night I dreamt of you, Daddy. It's was a blurred dream. I can't remember actually what happened. But I noticed that I was calling you in my dream & trying to hug you but I can't. Huhu. It was dark & quiet. I can't recognize the place either. More, I can't see your face even I'm in front of you. I don't know why. Daddy, is there something you want from me? Please let me know.
Last time, I dreamt of you giving me a number to win & I almost hit it. It's not my luck though because I didn't know how to play with numbers. Haha. But I admit It was real. And It was you who's gave me the number to win. : )
Daddy, I missed you more after I saw you in my dreamt last night. I wish I know what you want. I wish I can hear you said my name again. Bi! Bi! I was so happy to called out by that name though. Because It's showed how much you care about me. And thanks for calling me Bi for the past 21 years. I'm really glad you are my Daddy~
Posted by Henrietta Thomas at 10:55
Monday, May 9
Last Saturday, I brought Mammy a new beg for Mother's Day. She seemed very happy when receiving those beg from me. I wish you can see her smile. Mammy looked so pretty when she smiled though. : )
By the way, when we're going to sleep that night. We talked about you. Titi did asked Mammy about you when my Mammy asked him first, "Mana Daddy kau?". Titi answered, "Dia jalan kan". I thought he already knew you were gone. But I was wrong. He still remembered you were here. Then Titi asked Mammy, "Mammy, Kalau saya sudah besar Daddy pandai pulang tu kan?". Mammy replied, "Daddy kau kan sudah tiada, mana dia boleh pulang lagi..". While we were talking, I didn't notice that my tears already flowing over. I was a bit touched. :'(
Daddy, your little punk child is missing you. Even though he's still 7, but deep inside his heart. I knew he missed you more than me. I wish you can comfort him as you did last two years. He was so manja with you back then. But don't worry Daddy, I will always be with him & give whatever he wants. As long he's happy. :) Just give your best blessings to us then we'll be okay.
Posted by Henrietta Thomas at 08:55
Saturday, May 7
How are you? I hope you were always fine there. Even though you're not with us anymore but I believe you still wandering somewhere in here or maybe you're just up there seeing us from Heaven. I wish I can tell you how much I missed you. I cried many times after you exhale your last breath. I couldn't accept it well Daddy. But then, I recovered. Peoples around me always encouraged me to be strong & accept the faith that GOD need you more than me. And I knew that you also wouldn't want me to be that sad always, right?
Well, even since that day, I promised to myself. I'll be a good girl & help Mammy whenever she needs. And not to forget, my siblings your sweet children. I wish you can see Titi & Nenet. How happy they are being at school & having good friends around. Somehow, I felt relieved because they already grown up & can accept you're not with them. Sometimes, I asked them. "Daddy di mana?", so they answered, "Daddy di Heaven sudah..". I wanted to cry that time but I hold my tears & said, "Kakak ingat kamu lupa sudah sama Daddy..Hehe..". I smiled as they smiled to me. :)
I know It's hard when you're not around especially for Mammy. But we try our best in life so you that was up in the Heaven wouldn't have any disappoint on us. I'll make you proud of me, Daddy.
Posted by Henrietta Thomas at 08:58